confused. this nic. do i want his body? give up my virginity for him? (well not like for him but just with him anyway he certainly dont value it that much given that im obviously willing to do it without being in a relationship with him) well the chance's here, tomorrow night. he is being a dick. suddenly the phone convo turns sour and cut off my line n i forgot wt's happened. well anyway.

if he doesnt get me into a good mood n talk sweetly i wont be happy having sex with him anyway. so i definitely wont b the one tumming him n calling him up to come out (n hv sex). well n if im tired i wont go out too coz i wont b turned on easily i suppose?

well

perhaps

this sense of weightlessness

must be filled with

weight of a man

i hate this battle between the sexes from that RTHK program. quite so pathetic, and again, makes me be more so self conscious and doubt if im one of them, unknowingly. want to leave hk once again

i think i'm simply lost, unhappy and in need of love.
inability to open up
unable to precisely articulate thoughts and sentiments
keeping stuff inside deeper n deeper
mixed with idiosyncratic thoughts and opinion
i need to get out get out get out of here